"Life... drugs... rehab"
Posted by Weetbix man (as ),
Okay, this is a long story so I'll gloss over some details... For the past 15 years I have been an addict to 1 thing or another, often more than 1 thing at a time. Combined with mental health issues, racism, stigmas, I was on a fast track to an early grave. So partway through 2017 I had hit rock bottom enough times to land at bedrock, and well you can go any lower than that. So I had a choice to make, go left and take my self out of existence, or go right and try and make my life worth living. I choose right. So I spoke to my counsellor and told her to get me into any rehab anywhere, I don't care I just needed help. I landed in the Lyndon Withdrawal Unit in Bloomfield Campus and then to Wattlegrove Rehab at the Bloomfield Campus. Those stark blue walls saved my life. I spend a number of months in Wattlegrove; the 1st few months of the rest of my new life. I was broken down, cleaned out and laid the groundwork for the building of my sobriety. You learn who you really are - what you're made of and if you grab hold with both hands you are given a chance to make something better then the fleeting existence you had. You are given hope and a purpose, a new way to look at life and deal with the issues you face each and day. But facing them without drugs and alcohol? Now if being an addict was easy, being sober is hard - the hardest thing you will ever attempt, cause as you rewire your brain and body you attempt to kill off the thing inside that kept you alive for so long. And that sucker doesn't go down easy... But having a program and a plan, support from good people and faith in what being gives you comfort helps greatly. I will not say I'll never use again, as I have had a bust since I have been out back in the world. But what you do after the fact is what defines you. Do you stay sitting in your own crap cause its warm, or do you pick your self up, clear the fog from your mind and go back to meetings and get back on the sober wagon? Me, I got back on the wagon cause the crap still stinks. I have worked too damn hard to go back to the state I was before.
This is my new story I'm writing each day. I wake up sober and each night I go to bed with a clear head. If you want what we have, it is attainable but only if you work every day at it...